Well, it's about that time. Sara will be 2 in two months from today. I made a promise to myself that I would nurse her until she was 2. So, I have started the weaning process. I am starting by dropping a feeding every few days until we are down to nap-time and bed-time. Then, a little bit after she turns 2, I will drop the nap feeding and so on until no more "nana".This is going to be very hard for both of us. I was thinking about this last night and just cried so hard on Mike's shoulder. Sara is my last baby and after this I will never nurse again. I suppose mostly I am sad because for the last 4 years, I have been nursing all but 6 months. Sure, some days I get tired of it and want to quit, but it has been the most rewarding, life-affirming thing I have ever done. "Look at me! I can nourish and comfort my baby with my breasts!". It has been such a large part of my life that it is strange to imagine not breastfeeding anymore. It feels like it is time though, and doing it gradually should be easy enough. I will still miss looking down at her sweet little face while she is nursing and having her smile at me.
On the other hand, it will be nice to have my body to myself again.
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